An amazing experience!!

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Today I had another session with my counsellor, Carol. We are doing healing prayers, Today I met God in the garden of my heart. What a wonderful place that is!! So much peace & comfort!! It is soooo beautiful there & soooooo peaceful!! There is no pain, no worry there!! I am working on my anxiety & giving that over to God.Carol asked me if I wanted to give my emotions to God. When I tried to give my emotions to God I found that they were stuck!! There were many chains, doors & locks around my emotions. They just wouldn't move!! There was a tug of war going on in my heart. I was even having chest pain!! I was also experiencing fear of a void that might be left after God took control of my emotions. God was prompting me to let go but I couldn't. Then Carol prayed that God would fill the room & that everything else would leave. I instantly felt the chains break away!! I heard God say to me,"Everything will be all right my child!! I will fill any void left in your heart!! Give it all to me!! I will be glad to take it from you!!" I was instantly filled with so much peace I just cannot describe it!!  Great is our God & worth of the highest praise!! My words are so inadequate to try to describe this!! All I wanted to do was fall on the floor & worship!! I felt so unworthy to be in God's presence like that!! But praise God that Christ went to the cross for me so that I could come into God's presence!! I can come boldly now that I am covered by Christ's blood!! All my imperfections are covered as if they were never there!!

I  have come to a surprising conclusion about my healing. I have been asking God to take away my pain thinking that was healing. I have now concluded that God has a different kind of healing in mind!! He wants to heal my soul!! That includes all of me-my mind, my emotions, etc. I'm wondering if maybe the physical healing will take place after that. Or maybe this is all part of the physical healing too!! I don't know but now I am all for it!! God is working thru Carol to heal me! And if God is in it that is the best place to be!! It has been such a very long time since I have felt such love & peace!! I know with my head that God could choose to heal me of my physical pain at any time-He has power over everything!! But in His infinite wisdom He chose not to do it my way but His!! I need to allow Him to heal my emotional pain as well!!

Dear Father God,
I want to praise You & thank you for all that You have done for me!! Today You showed me that even though I thought I was close to You I can be even closer!! That's where I want to be all the time!! It felt soooo good!!  I want to be wrapped in Your love & peace all the time!! Lord-I thank you for the healing work that You have begun in me!! " Thru the storm, thru the night, precious Lord, send the light. Take my hand, Precious Lord-lead me home." Please give me the strength to continue this journey that we have just begun. Lord I thank You for the pain that You put in my head & in my life!! I now know that I would never have experienced Your love in such a way if there was no pain in my life!! I want to shout it from the rooftops!! God is love!! He loves me & He wants to take care of me!! Me, who in the grand scheme of things is such a small, insignificant being yet You have chosen me & You love me!! In my finite mind that is so hard to understand so today You chose to show me so that I might begin to understand!! Thank you!! Today Lord I think that I felt like Moses did when You showed him just a glimpse of You!! Today You showed me a bigger part of You than You have ever chosen to show me before!! All I want to do is fall down & worship You yet at the same time I want to hide!! "Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord! Let the earth hear His voice!! Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord! Let the people reoice!! Of come to the Father thru Jesus the Son and give Him the glory-great things He hath done!!"Thank you Lord that you have chosen me to do this work!! I pray Lord that you will finish what You have started!! No matter the pain, no matter the physical or emotional discomfort remind me of Your love & care!! Continue to enfold me deeper & deeper in Your love & care until I know nothing else!! Lord-Your love is truly amazing!!